Holli had several friends visit her today. She would have rare periods when she would try to say something but mostly would focus in on her friends and seem to really listen to what they were saying. Her voice is barely a whisper and I can not read lips. I want so badly to be able to understand what she is saying. I know that day will come, hopefully soon. I think it is good for her friends to be here and stimulate her. The last two nights after she is given her sleeping medication, Holli has gotten the biggest smile on her face and twinkling eyes. She almost looks like she wants to laugh. I try to get her to tell me what is making her so happy but she just smiles. It is a beautiful sight!
Diane

I am so amazed...Eliza has been here visiting with Holli. She has been lying beside her talking with her and coaching her in yoga breathing. Holli is constantly talking with her but it is hard to understand her Eliza told her not to hold it in if she wanted to cry ....Holli all of a sudden started whaling....crying loudly for a few minutes which made me burst into tears....she is still trying really hard to "talk" to Eliza but it is so hard to understand......she is coming back to us! She has had several episodes of loudly crying....I think she has realized what has happen to her and she is distraught. This is so hard to watch but I know it is something she has to go through....her grieving......please pray for Holli to have peace.
Diane

Just wanted to clarify that it is not Franny Corsick that moved to Mexico but Holli's friend Frannie from the Derailleurs. Poor Franny has been swamped with calls....sorry Franny! Holli intermittently has been trying to very softly talk. It is so soft at times that I am having a hard time trying to understand. Last night she did say I love you too and mm hum when I asked her a question. I will keep you posted. Keep up the prayers!

Diane

I am on cloud nine! Today when Holli was in the chair and I put her speaking valve on her trach , in a very soft, quiet voice Holli said "I love you, Mom" " I love you!" She has not said any more at this time, but this is a start. I thank you Lord for answering so many prayers. I know this is just the beginning.....
Diane

Finally Holli has had some good days after several weeks of problems. Her electrolytes are back in normal range and her IV fluids have been stopped. She continues to be very quite. She has not tried to make any sounds for the past several weeks but she is very calm. For a couple of days I found her focusing on the tv that is hanging from the ceiling. I started finding movies for her to watch but today she did not seem interested in the tv. She has started tracking more with her eyes at times and focusing on people more.

I boxed up the last of Holli's belongings here in the room to be shipped out on Tuesday. The walls seem so bare and depressing without all the posters and pictures of Holli hanging on the wall. It was really hard telling a couple of Holli's good friends good-bye today. Frannie is moving to Mexico and DA will be leaving for his job at Burning Man tomorrow. They both promised to come see Holli in Tn. I told them the door will always be open. The hard part about leaving is having to tell Holli's and now my friends good bye.

I am still hoping to hear from Bourdeaux or Trevecca but will try other facilities to see if they will take our application pending tenncare. I pray something will become available soon so Holli and I can go home. I am so homesick for my family. I will be missing my twin grand daughters birthday this Tuesday. Happy Birthday Sarah and Rachel...Gran Gran loves and misses you so very much!
Diane

Holli is still having some complications due to her previous vomiting and then needing to have enemas and laxatives. This caused her to get dehydrated and her electrolytes imbalanced. She is receiving IV fluids along with her feeding trying to get her blood work back to normal. This has been a hard last several weeks for her as well as myself. She is very quite now and does not try to make any sounds but still opens her eyes and moves her left side.
I am still trying to get Holli placed in a facility in Nashville. Bordeaux is where I am trying to get a bed. Because of her not having insurance until we can get to Tennessee and apply for tenncare and no beds at this present time has become an issue. The admission's nurse has given her case to her supervisor to review but did not sound promising. I need special prayers at this time for Holli's medical problems and for us to find a facility. I am trying not to get discouraged but it is really hard sometimes not to feel very low and helpless. It has been 5 months since the accident. I pray that something good will happen soon.
Diane

It has been several weeks since I last posted a note. I was hoping to get some responses from the posting that my niece, Jill made regarding helping us get Holli back to Tennessee.
Holli has not had a very good week, she has been vomiting and it has become more frequent in the last several days. We are trying to figure out what might be causing this to occur. The doctor has stopped the last medication he started to see if this is the culprit. I can tell she does not feel good...they are giving her medication for her nausea and vomiting which helps. It makes it very hard to figure out when she can't tell you how she is feeling. I pray we can get this figured out soon.
I am still trying to find a facility that will accept us in Tennessee. I have a doctor who is willing to accept her but because lack of insurance makes it harder to find a skilled facility for her that will meet her needs. I keep praying that the right door will open to make this all possible. I need to get back home to my husband and I need to take Holli with me. She has a ways to go to "wake up" and even longer to recover from this brain injury.
I am in the process of mailing home Holli's personal belongings and moving her storage to a warehouse that will store her belongings and will not charge us with the help of her loving friends. I could not do all this by myself and I am so grateful to those special people who have helped make all this happen. I love you guys!
I hope the next time I post on the blog that I will have a positive update for you regarding Holli's progress.
Diane